- 02.02.26 13:20 (140mg) (13:19, 110mg) (initially the date was wrong. It was 01 instead of 02. But the time was already past at the that time anyway.)
Clocks are based on Turkey, UTC+3
Disclaimer: I am not suggesting anybody to use it but It seemed good idea to revive an interesting old tradition. It is easy to overdose and not good on full stomach. One time it may feel like dose was small. And next time you increase it may be too much. My dosages are based on extract. I am already taking it time to time. Although I wasn't planning ahead of time normally. I usually use it when I feel overwhelmed, bored and depresed. Though I am always bored. I wasn't using it very frequently recently. It is kinda like situmulant and antidepressant and very strong anxiolytic.
I feel like using any kind of situmulant especially caffeine comes with lots of unknown catches. I wasn't drinking coffee for a while and started again because I am too bored but I am not sure it is logical decision. On the other hand I am pretty sure harmala is an exception. It is like an exploit intentionally placed in this universe. A zero-day exploit :D.
Harmala is intentionally named as “üzerlik” and some other names. And actually English word "user" is probably coming from this. Like "drug user". In some books it is referred as the boiling drink for the infidels. Not that I claim it is based on underlying parts but it is frequently mentioned as boiling drink for infidels or people who are not satisfied in the book. Historically it seems like people were trying to use it at the same time. We are not in that era. Obviously I am writing here everything publicly. I am just using it because I am extremely bored. I would also say there isn't any issue that it cannot solve but you may forget about the issue while on it.
I feel like I accumulate bad feelings over time and it erases them. And I feel like I wasn't using enough recently. Although in Turkish culture this plant actually used for something like this. I feel like it is a metaphorical explanation for something more complex going on behind.
(170 mg is kinda slight overdose. But I am bored :D And actually it seems like some ancient people were overdosing on purpose. Maybe even 2-3x of it. But I did it by mistake when I first started using. Not that I really regret but I definitely can't do it again :D. Even at relatively low doses it may cause some impairment. I only use it when I will be home. I am not really explaining how to use it here. Just I do warnings as precaution. It also not to be used under pregnancy. It sounds stupid to state this here. In Middle East it is even used as abortifacient. I am using extract. When seeds boiled it may cause more side effects like nausea and diarrhea at lower doses. It also depends on your stomach content though. I come to realize that if I eat something my guts don't like before using it, it will be likely to cause such symptoms. It like multiplies the signal and drops the threshold for such things to happen. It is best to be used on empty stomach. Full stomach may diminish and delay effects unpredictably. I suppose 5 g of seeds already too much for most people. Don't start with 5 grams. You should keep the boiling time same so it won't affect the dosage. Also put some lemon juice or vinegar to water. It tastes gross. But really gross. For instance, Xanax tastes bitter. Your brain let you know that it is off but like a drug, just abnormal. Tongue really recognize it as a drug. For Peganum Harmala I can't say the same. Your tongue just tells to stay away from it. Not that peganum harmala is average situmulant but seems like situmulants are bitter. Coffee is similar. Ofc harmala is not even comparable :D. This sitation actually makes me reconsider continue using it.
¶ Past Sessions Feelings and Discoveries
Just the abnormal ones. I can't describe everything I feel or think anyway.
¶ 20.01.26 21:20 (170mg - 21:08)
I had feelings of having a memory that evoke a green amazon like pasture but not with very tall plants. An exotic place. Can't name any living being around. It just feels like empty space kinda. Also there is a feeling of death on the background like that weird bad feeling that I cannot describe.
I had similar ones before maybe an animal had eaten harmala plant by mistake and intoxicated heavily which is something actually happens in regular basis. They normally avoid eating it because of the taste but when there is a scarcity they may eat it. Maybe it had vision of a pastura because of this. It was kinda all green place like leaves are covering everywhere. Even if it is not true it kinda makes too much sense. (I didn't see a wild goat. It was just really about green plants everywhere.)
I couldn't sleep at night it was relatively productive day. Not many things but good one. “Lan”. And later didn't sleep and find the part relating PI. Though this is 19 hours later. Half life of active compounds are very low. Like few hours. I actually still can't sleep and if I I take xanax it will be like everything disappearing. Not that I am overexcited I just can't sleep. Harmala kinda situmulates but keeps you chill. It is not really caffeine or anything like that. Although it should be mostly out of my system already.
¶ 24.01.26 14:00 (170mg) (13:51)
170mg is little bit too much. My stomach was empty and effects between 30-60 minuts. I took a shower around that time and it wasn't comfotable. I had some horrific time. Normally it makes you feel like it is simulation but when you overdose, discomfort reinforces the reality.
It is 00:30 and I am still disgusted. I don't know it is really about the dosage. It will take some time to forget this. I guess capsule exloded or stuck on my esophagus. This doesn't normally happen.
¶ 02.02.26 13:19 (110mg)
I think this dose may be in the ideal range. This time I tried to be careful took the capsule with cold water. I drink something acidic after to make it absorbed faster and predictably but in last time I took capsule directly with the acidic solution. Suspecting that it caused it to stuck to my esophagus.
It is 00:41 and time really flowed vell. This dosage or actually little bit lower seems like very good for depression. I am seriously suspecting aliens are influencing me when I use this. And they are creating conditions forcing me into it. I wouldn't think aliens in it if it wasn't only alternative. Buth every other substance either does not work or illegal here.
I am also using U.S. made Xanax for sleep nowadays. When I am using U.S. made Xanax, consistently having higher effect from harmala. I almost forgot this. I guess they seriously slipped some ssrs into them. It is Turkey nobody is checking anything anyway even if there is a mistake. I mean at this point this was happening so consistently not a paronia. It may come down to it is being less effective but this case is less likely because the effect I am mentioning amplified is related to SSRI receptors. Nothing surprises me anymore. Living in Turkey what can be surprising. I was getting some vauge side effects and thinking it was less effective even before thinking about this. Just hoping aliens takes over the world soon. I really have no patience left for this shit. Not that it seems like they are already not controling to world technically but it really seems like those motherfuckers trying to beg me and some other normal people to it.(Although this should be wrong though SSRI would have noticable effect when I take it 2 mg for instance. I just use 0.5 for sleep. And an SSRI would be almost out of system by the time I use harmala. I really don't understand though because it really consistently happens. I am even being more paranoid when I use this which is actually crazy. Actually I wasn't even remembering this until now which I took it 1-2 hours ago lol.) (Can't say it is normally that bad maybe but I use it for sleep. I feel like It kinda makes me coldblooded person. As an antidepressant no may make me feel better. Now in short term makes me angry though. Maybe this just coincidence.)