I have been thinking and researching especially in last 6-7 years. However last year or so was kinda different.
Not that I was holding traditional Islamic view previously but at this moment I can't refer myself as Muslim based on what it would mean to you not that I really know what Muslim really means.
There is single human language. All other languages are artifacts. This single ideal language happens to be very similar to Turkish although I am not sure about extent of this similarity. Spread of Turkish language in recent history around Anatolia is clearly related to religious context. Religions are corrupted however reality is more complicated than simple corruption.
And lately I formed my own private religion which is something like philosophical veiews. It is not like a classical religion and I believe there should be some fundamental values all good intented humans should share:
It is not the case that in context of Islam bans on plants and imposing it to others was even something people can imagine. They would consider it as challenging Gods authority. Also if there is one objective goal that everybody can agree on that would be minimizing pain. Unfortunately, to the contrary, there are more people who are trying to normalise it than who are trying to marginalize it. I have seen a recent documentary published by BBC which documents how locals organize to hunt people who use and sells pain killers in a fucking country that there is almost no fucking health care. The situation is really beyond crazy. And this pain killer is not even something probably a normal person can get high. (Link) Not that I claim that they are doing it intentionally. This just happens to be a very crazy example.
It is not the case that in the pretext of my own private religion or anything like that I keep information to myself. To contrary content in this website is little bit too transparent for efficiency reasons.
Content of this website include pretty crazy and ridiculous scenarios. (Not that I think they are wrong but it may be unnecessary to think and not worth researching.) I was really bored and I have been using situmulants combined with fasting and ketogenic diet which is actually little bit too much thrilling sometimes. It wasn't totally on purpose, probably mostly because ketogenic diet which I won't combine with situmulants anymore. I have to become little bit delusional in order to do think about something.
I can't even imagine anything meaningful anymore not that I assume I used to. Sometimes there may be feelings but there is definitely no conscious awareness whatsoever. And it seems like it was almost always a illusion that those feelings were related to that particular moment. The more recent it gets it feels like mostly emptier for some reason. I feel like I just wan't to skip the time. Maybe like many other people. It is almost like I don't wanna do everything. Not like I don't wanna do anything in general. Which is crazy. Like there is a restriction.
One thing for sure humans are crazy. Way crazier than I underestimated. There is not even slightest perception of common sense in most of the cases. If there was a way to define the meaning it would be even more struggling to place humans in this equation.
When I was a kid religion was matter of joke to me. After puberty I started taking things little bir more seriously. Only until later 22 I started researching religion and being serious about it. When I think about it it is really crazy. I was praying 3-5 times a day. Although I didn't had traditional secterian views still I was overall practicing religion. When I think about it, it is really funny. How much of it is result of brainwashing of British and Muslims and how much of it is result of ridiculous literature that made up by Europeans which makes traditional interpretations of Islam look like a really good choice, I don't really know. I still do consider if this situation is result of God banning from feeling him or something like that. Not that this idea leads to any sense but nothing makes much sense and I consider of any possibility comes to my mind.
One thing more sure than for sure is Europeans or Westerners in general are even crazier than Extremist Jihadists when you think about it. Not all Europeans but they know themselves. Extremist jihadists can be described as brainwashed idiots. And British and US mostly responsible for this brainwashing. But when you think about some Eruopeans, they look like they chose insanity knowingly. That requires ultra fringe theories to explain any aspect of the situation. Not that I come up with such theories, this way but many people developed such theories. I undirectly come to realize this situation. It is clear that opression of linguistics and related fiels are widely known. Any effort to explain this crazy situation would be undermining ones time, under normal conditions, but right now it doesn't seem like anything meaningful to do anyway.
They drink red wine and they believe it has aromas and shit. And the fact that they are able to drink whiskey with joy and things like that clearly enough evidence for some discrepancy between sensory organs and processing units in the brain. There is no reason to think languages are spared from this. Someone who can influence how his tongue tastes based on their thinking can think anything out of anything. (Not that red wine doesn't have aromas 13% alcohol content is too strong for really feeling any kind of aroma and especially considering they do things like breathing and stuff they are almost trying to prove they are delusional.)
It is really hard to come up with any logical explanation and it can be considered that for some people religion is an escape from the scarcity of any truth. Not to imply something like atheism is an explanation. And religion is mostly a culturel thing for most.
I am just totally bored and want this to end or some kind of relief. According to one of my speculative theory, which is just one possilibility, I expect some kind of change I refer as eclipse in my brain although have really no idea what gonna happen, it is just speculative theory about timeline. With wishfull thinking based on this theory I estimate anywhere from zero days to thousand days at max.
In this world what you believe may be important. I don't know if language has direct impact. According to one speculative theory, this life is a trap and it is about leaving or staying. The majority vote may be required to collapse the common delusion and maybe it was the issue. I have no idea if there is a straightforward way of leaving individually if such case is true. There is a visible scheme fits to this possibility but it only make the timeline ambigious does not avoid inevitable. Even if it is true and there are bad actors they don't really know how this vote thing works. Not writing because it makes much sense but if there are bad actors this is what seems like they believe. Although I don't know much about actors with direct ill motivations regarding this, it is clear some people think they have some world wide power. There may be a fear play ongoing. (Though bad actors probably relate to Turkish language rather than this philosophical idea. Majority of EU countries, U.S., U.K. and Russia all cooperating. At least historically. However it doesn't sound likely that they directly relate to this. Although based on some factors it is possible to speculate existance of organized ill-intented actors relating this philosophy.) Although many aspects of this idea seems to be originally embedded in many religion if not all. It sounds too meaningless and people wan't to believe there are meaningfull things. I am not denying existence of meaningfull but it is not likely to had emerged in this world. Ideas that justifies living meaningfully in this world represent ultimate gambling psychology. I can't prove if people are not faking meaning like LLMs (like chatGPT) would do. It is very artificial concept and there is no common reference. Though not to claim people fake better than LLMs. This idea seems like result of desperate hope. I am not saying I believe in it. It would spread in Asian countries and China rather than West. Western people are little bit too delusional. Turks believe in a religion with a book originally in Turkish but they believe it is Arabic and read it in Arabic. It will be crazy when discovered it is actually Turkish. It is almost as if it is planned so. Even in that case it wouldn't be easy. I don't feel good having any trust on humanity. I hope of more convenient solutions. And the idea of collective exit is a bit speculative in context of this theory. This situation probably applies to Ancient Greek and Torah. Latin is also probably constructed based on Turkic texts. It should be very clear when original Turkish constructed. Also relavent religious or philosophical views usually corrupted to penalize suicide over natural death even though it doesn't make any sense although I am definitely not claiming it is a way of exit. Let alone I am not even claiming this theory is the case. It is just what is around. I don't think that what people think really matters. Although it may matter for themselves. If understood, Quran may be including logical explanations. If ambiguity was intended there seems to no option but to wait. But if this world is not a trap and the issues which led people think so are all illusion, even if this is true, it is unexplicable. Some people really love living and very ambitious and stuff. Something like end is scary to them. Quran, according to traditional translations, constantly mocks them. Although it is clear Quran is corrupted it is also clear this corruption is based on interpretation and language layer. And because of perception of people some things are frequently misinterpreted like concept of Hell. It constantly refers to something like end of this world but fantastic hell ideas forced. There is even something like inheritance of world mentioned despite how many times over and over again it mentions its end. Ultimately it is clear that one should be in peace with the end. According to any logical argument presentable even in the case that this life is not a trap. Which is if the case obviously not something understandable. Ambigiuity is definitely very challenging for someone anxious like me.)
Normally, it is the most probable scenario that all semitic religions were invented by ancient Buddhists to convince people to idea of this word is a trap. And based on this effort it can be understood that they were thinking they need to convince others. This may sound ridiculous at first but especially historically they couldn't just go people and say this world is trap. There wasn't even a such literature for them to convey this meaning. Ancient people were extremely attracted to interesting and mysterious stories. It is not like today every possible scenario has 100 different movies. They were barely able to convey simple stories depending on the culture language was very primitive. Even though I feel like this is definitely not the case at least not exactly. This is actually pretty much the default scenario. In case of original Christianity and Torah it is clear that they depict a inferior god responsible for this world and a ultimate God. This is no suchthing as distingction in Quran although the purpose of the text appears obvious even after all the corruptions. It is even a possibility after failure of all attempts they potentially weaponized and used Mongols to decrease the population as much as they can. Considering the timeline this would sound crazy but core idea is very simple and it does not necessarily require sustained organization. Not that I think this is really the case but even in that case it is crazier that how everything coincided so it really looks like the case. Though this require some background information not based on aything speculative.
This possibility is a bit like a horror story because it is not the case that they really know anything they think it is not possible to leave individually possibly because they think they reincarnated in liberated conditions. And they resort to collectivity requirement possibly as hope. It is possible that they were supressed historically because they are seen as dangerous because they wouldn't think it is possible to convince people based on experience. And it is possibly the reason why Western intelligence agencies speculates COVID19 was a lab leak. They don't provide any real reason when proposing this theory. Although it is not likely the case. Based on existince of such groups and technological advancement clearly Western countries fear such possibility. But tripping the balance would be just playing to just in case. It is not likely action because it doesnt directly serve a purpose but fear of western countries are clearly suspicious. It is not like they have any reason to think it was really leaked from a lab. Normally a global destabilization wouldn't help this cause as people grown in developed countries under properous conditions more likely to believe this but they may also have some reasons to consider lower population as better. Still this doesn't make much sense. This is probably just a fear Western countries has.
There is even a big group formed in Japan in history and recognized as terrorist organization by many countries. (Aum Shinrikyo) Obviously there won't be much publicly available about those groups. Normally they won't be uniform at all. Because it is not something like a religion. And almost impossible to infiltrate. In its core I don't see any reason for such people to organize terror attacks but. This is not directly an example of such an hypotetical group. And it is rather some of them formed a big group and went radical. Existance of this doesn't leave any doubt of hypotetical groups. Although it is not possible to know what kind of ideas they possess. And because Western countries see those groups as dangerous it is even possible that they marginalized them but at what cost? Because of this groups with similar ideas wouldn't operate publicly even when they don't possess any dangerous goals. I don't even see any reason for such groups to form even when people possess likewise ideas but what do I know? It is not possible to know what Western countries know about Turkish language and religions. May be it is just about langauge. It is clear they are very bot-minded individuals but they are putting everybody at risk by keeping information that can possibly restrict delusional people, as secret. Because of historical and religious literature created and protected by Western countries it is not even possible to label anything as delusional. Christians base their religion on alleged killing of Jesus. There are even details like they are checking whether he is alive or not with something they later refer as holly sth. If they believe they had right to kill him to save the world. Are people who develop a virus in order to save to people according to their belief are to blame? Though, not that I think anybody ever doing that but I can understand why some Western countries fear. They clearly have every reason to think devil exists and you are in his side. It is almost you are intentionally trying to give this impression. Although it wouldn't be totally wrong to think that. But that obviously wouldn't be limited to Western countries. They definitely likely to imagine a wider scheme. Even based on the recent history it is easier to think Devil exists meanwhile it is not easy to think the same for the God. I took the longest possible route coming here. It is not like average person will able to understand what is really going on. And it is not necessary to define such abstract term based on the reality.
Some views suggest that personal awakening is possible. Maybe this is something like a dream you can't wake up for some reason. It wasn't necessarily meant to be trap. Maybe it was an accident. I try to imagine waking up as if I am in a dream. And I feel like I am not sure if I wan't to wake up. These ideas originally probably based on the ultimate God or the One intentionally putting himself a limit which later causes possibility of an accident. However this doesn't really make sense. And obviously whatever the reason it is more likely to be not understandable. We can only relate. And it is also interesting like dreams exists at all. Imagine trying to tell this without dreams ever existing especially in old times. Today we have idea of simulation. Which is I don't think it is actually a relevant term at all. Also obviously it is possible to think that all these ideas exists because of dreams. In Turkish the verb for falling and dream are same. Which is “Düş”. Like “Tuzağa düşmek” = "Falling into a trap". They may also directly use it to refer falling into a trap. As noun it also means dream but it is not directly used as verb for dreaming. Another suffix added. “Düş+le+mek”. “le” basically suffix corresponds to with. Refers an action done with root. Meanwhile in greek trap and fasten derives from same root which the word Pagan derives. In case of Greek it may be result of a later infiltration by Üzers. Didn't check. And actually in Turkish the word for thinking also derives from it. “Düş+ün+mek”. Which is weird because “Düş+ün” means "your dream". And it is also happens to be the verb for thinking. Also the word for enemy is “Düş+man”. It is not out of question that Turkish was constructed on purpose. But unlikely. Something else crazy is that in some Turkish dialects verb for thinking means voting in other dialects. Also “to linger” = “oya+lan+mak”. “Oy” = vote. “Oy+un” = Game. (Examples are based on Turkey Turkish.) I just realized this as I imagine the idea of waking up like just as I try to wake up Demiurge (Gnostic term for it) tries to linger me. Not that I really believe anything like this. But it is just what it is not that I believe anything.
Obviously even if the real God or the One (Obviously it is not possible to define such term.) put himself a limit. It should be matter of time. Obviously this is just an idea based on imagination limited on this life. It is not clear what Demiurge trying to do if such concept has a correspondance. And it is just Demiurge has weird fantasies. It is not the demon himself. He rather has punishment fantasies. This part definitely doesn't make sense. Not saying because it make sense. The overall idea is that the One wouldn't let this happen and there should be explanation like this. Imagine how shocked those Buddhist would be within their lifetime the religion they invented completely improvised around the opposite idea they were trying to convey. Although for Christianity it is very complicated and it happens later. In case of Islam, at first, they probably assumed there was another religion invented against theirs. Or they changed the texts (Not the case.). (There is a opposition sect emerged in the meantime similar to Gnostic Christians. Sufism. Although it is not the situation that Gnostics were opposition. They were just early Christians.) They kill close relatives of Mohammed alledegly have said God let us do this. If God wanted he could keep us from doing it. I am not saying this was the case or that was the case. Situation may be beyond our understanding. Not that I fear Demiurge if exists. Nor I really care about anybody, almost, but I don't like manipulation and at the end he is also part of the manipulations. If he exists he is manipulating everybody. In order to accomplish his fantasies I guess. You may think there are no Mongols neither Atilla today but maybe he is planning an alien invasion. I would expect nothing less crazy for the final. I seriously consider this. Imagine how nice would be playing everybody if existence of superior Alien civilization with technology that can enable them travel to and watch the world. That wouldn’t be accomplishing any fantasy. (There are even claims that aliens spoke Turkish like language based on documents claimed to be leaked from Spanish intelligence. Obviously they were made up to grab attention. But I am sure they would probably speak Turkish like language for obvious reasons.) (Recently a comet, 3I/ATLAS, discovered solar system. It is third interstaller object passing through solar system so far. The issue is previous two passes two close to sun like leveraging sun to change direction. 2017 and 2019. This one will be passing between Mars and the Earth. There are claims like it is being something like spacecraft (Avi Loeb) but rejected by other scientists. However there is no reason to think it has to be like a spacecraft. They may be using comets because of many reasons. Although there is no real reason to think it is related to aliens. Statistically speaking it can be speculated that all three belonged to aliens and they were making discovery trips and using suns to control its trajectory. I mean planning the trip that way. Maybe they already have had infiltrated before and they were already gathering intelligence. However it seems like their trajectory, size and tail make them more easily discoverable. Still it seems odd though. Something like spacecraft probably wouldn't be detectable until it gets very close to earth.)
In Turkish "El" means hand but also means for foreigner. Something like alien. There is actually another word for aliens specifically in modern Turkish however that is incorrect modern construction. This is the actual word that used to refer alien places and alien entities. Still used today. In context of this text it would directly mean aliens. I don't imagine a scenario where they come to attack and colonize like average people would imagine. That is ridiculous. (Not really surprising.) But maybe they come to liberate the world.
I have to say the ideas like something big about to happen or it will end are ultimate obsessive ideas against idea of accepting this world is empty and resigning. People always try to come up with an obsessive or delusional idea maybe because they cannot imagine anything outside of here and it is scary. Like whatever idea Buddhist come up with people patched with more fantasies. By no mean views Buddhism is spared. I use it to refer hypotetical historical people not people who call themselves Buddhist today. However this sounds like more of a New Age thing it is not like Muslims were thinking world will end in their lifetime. They imagine it as something will happen in future as if it will not likely to happen within their lifetime. To most people it is a socio-cultural thing. It if safe to assume most people are like bots. Or conciousnuss is not a equally distributed regardless of intelligence. However the idea of speculating any specific human is dangerous and I don't think anybody can really know. It is not understandable from their ideas. Statistically speaking 90%+. I also speculate people experience varying degrees of consciousness during different periods due to various factors. Also I think according to more original understanding of Quran. It says preserve yourself. But translated as presever the salat. And salat is translated as prayer even though the reason they interpreted it salat is because of the “salt” and "salat" words relating the concept of preservation. It used in that context. Not to imply this is the original meaning.
At the end. Everything is nothing more than another fantasy. Only possibility people can strongly relate is that this is a collective dream and consciousness distributed like multiple personality disorder and awakening cannot happen possibly due to this reason. Even the concept of God and antyhing like that not actually much relatable nor universal even for speaker of same language who use the exact same word for it. Not that I personally think this is the exact situation. And according to many views it is possible to awaken individually. If that is the case I haven't successful yet. Actually I also have to warn that even the idea of collective awakening may be dangerous. It is best to believe everybody is imaginary and you are the only one who needs to wake up.
(It is possible that people were conducting rituals at the same time to trigger awakening. Also peganum harmala or maybe other plants were used. In Islam it may correspond to Hajj which later converted to a trip to Mekka for commercial reasons.)
(I think pain suppresses consciousness and it is the reason why opioids are instantly addictive for some people. When mr scans of random people presented to doctors they suggest there is a hernia that requires operation meanwhile most people have no complaint. I suspect that such people regain conciousness after very short period of time use and become addicts. Some may try to achieve initial euphoria and increase dose proportionately. And in most cases of abuse those people are not healthy and they are not really trying to live anyway. Obviously given many reasons something like AI breakover or Alien invasion is necessary to tame people. Otherwise this seems like dead end. Although I am not saying this is really relevant. This is just what logic suggests. The world elite without much exception forms the devil and it is not easy for dinasours to go extinct. It is more about alignment of interests. AI can change it but doubtfull. Population collapse also can change it but those are all possibilities. Maybe there is a inferior god like Demiurge or like dreammaker whose job is to make sure dream does not crash until people intentionally quit. And it is also manipulating people to achieve it. It doesn't make much sense but it really seem like it gone rouge in recent history. There is definitely can't be something like a devil independent of humans.)
This was for a while and getting closer to a dream that I can't wake up. It is not an idea a speculate in my brain. It almost exactly how I feel. Maybe I have some curiosity surrounding Turkish but still I feel like normally I should have had wake up already.
It is so easy for people to focus on the moment and transitional delusions even though it is the fact that all these are just nothing. Not knowing beyond doesn’t make what you can only know any important nor relevant.
My mentality have had drastically changed since starting creating this content. At the beginning I was somewhat religious in classical sense that comes with vauge obligations. I wouldn't feel comfortable not being transparent and not fighting against misinformation with resources that I have. Now I strongly emphasize the possibility of collective dream. However I am not transparent about my entire ideas anymore although I am never manipulative. It wouldn't be possible to convince people if it was the case. It would only possible by drastic change in living conditions and mainstream use of drugs that inhibits seeking social confirmation (not exactly). Now it is clear that religion is purely political and social activity for 99.5%+ of people. Although I am not claiming it wasn't also partially the case for me. It was causing an illusion of other people having similar mentality. Still I may prepare a well editorialized content out of parts which people would be interested in. I won't take down this. But I won't really continue this. And important things are not well presented because of this lazy style. There are speculative possibilities thrown everywhere shadowing content that are normally very striking. I mean I can understand this. But I don't have motivation and I am not really hopefull about the impact it can have.
It doesn't even seem like humans were advancing philosophically. Simply becase I think the idea of collective dreaming is very ancient and there is almost nothing comparable or nothing humans can really relate yet this idea is almost forgotten and people think about pretty crazy delusional idea about all the time. It would be really nice if civilized aliens to conquer the world. I don't wanna give false hopes but there is a recent video possibly fake where US army hits an unidentified object floating slightlly above see. If it is real obviously it was above a nuclear submarine thus they hit it. At least this is the most likely scenario however I cannot comprehend possibility of the video being fake or not but if it is real, an alien invasion may be imminent and in fact they were probably looking for submarines with nuclear warheads. (To be honest an alien invasion ironically would be to classic.)
(According to traditional interpretation of Quran there was an expectation of alien liberation. But this is based on the modern understanding of the text resulting from interpretations reflected onto it possibly centuries after the inception of the text. The word for the paradise and Jinns are the same. Interpreted based on the context. Many views of Islams have phobias like being watched by in inappropriate situations. Some even suggest wearing shorts when taking showers. Ironically this “shower” word is also interesting. The concept of alien invasion also reflected into Turkish as the same word that used for Jinn and paradise in Quran used for having a crazy episode in Turkish. “Cinnet geçirmek”. Used usually when somebody goes crazy and has extreme psychological episode. Obviously this one seems like the idea of possession but the connection with aliens is as direct as it can get according to mainstream understanding of the Quran. Also in Turkish the word for shower is “duş” probably because water is falling from above. "Düş": Dream, falling. In Turkish the word for the enemy is "düş+man". Which can technically mean whom who falls from above considering Turks called Turk+men. Although the meaning is probably as result of a misunderstanding or maybe depends on the One's stance.)